PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU HELP ME PLEASE READ THIS!?

First, let me say how sorry I am that you are going through this. There is enough stress and pressure in a school-aged kid's life already without the weight of your mom's world on you too :( How long has your mom been sober? Often times, people get sober, but continue to act the way they did when they were drinking. You shouldn't even know the details of the child support payments. That is something neither parent should be worrying you with. It sounds like your mom is depressed, she needs help so she can appreciate you and all the other blessings in life she has been given. You can't fix it for her, she has to want it just like she wanted to quit drinking. however, it is NOT okay to hit your child, ever! There is no excuse for that, so my advice to you would be to talk to a trusted adult at school or church. Tell them everything you have said here. This isn't about getting your mom in trouble, it is about saving what's left of your childhood and protecting yourself. You might be eligible for a court appointed special advocate (CASA worker) they might be able to help you get a judge to give your dad custody.If for some reason your dad doesn't feel he can keep you full time, this would at least get your mom into counseling and headed towards a more positive life. Love and prayers Sweetheart!